Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Dunes 2009

Before I share the details of Glamis, how would anyone like a $25 gift card to Safeway this week to help out with the Turkey Dinner shopping, or a yummy recipe? Go here. And hurry cause it's gonna go fast peeps.


Moving on...



I watched a 22 year old man die this weekend. He wrecked his four-wheeler and I literally stood there and watched him die. I didn't drive myself up to the top of that dune to watch his spirit leave his body, I was told his leg was broken and wanted to watch a helicopter land. Five minutes later they were performing CPR and continued to do so as hundreds of people circled around and held our breaths. I couldn't walk away. I felt like doing that was giving up on him and the friends who were surrounding and cheering him on. I have never seen anything like it nor would I prefer to see it again. But it was such an eye opening experience. It was a confirmation to me that life is so fragile, that our bodies die but our spirits live on, and that we will get to have that body back in its perfection one day. It was devastating to watch and would never wish it upon anyone no matter what circumstances were surrounding it, and though I am the least of anyone who needed comforting at this time, I was comforted in knowing what I know and hope that those who loved this guy can know it too.
Before this experience, we had a blast. Cash rode till his thumb was cramping and he was using his wrist to push the gas. He wore the same riding pants the entire trip only taking them off to sleep. Sailor ate, ate, and slept and tried to eat sand and so mostly played in the camper. She is so easy going. Chaz did what he loves best to do. It is always so fun to see him get on his four wheeler and act like a carefree guy again. I had dune fright. Period. I worry way to much about leaving my kids motherless.
We had good company, good food, and some good relaxation as well as a sobering experience to remind us just how important our time together really is.

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Listen. For. This. Guy.

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Sunday, November 1, 2009

Spooky. 2009.









*P.S. Did you get my humor about miss piggy and kermit the frog? It kind of looks like that right?

Monday, October 26, 2009

C.L.U.M.S.Y.


How does one remain graceful throughout the trials given to them? I'm definitely not graceful. I'm clumsy with a capital C. One minute I'm up with my chin up brave face on and the next I'm huddled down in a corner sobbing. How does one keep it all in perspective? I can't. I act like my world is going to fall down around me. It is so hard for me to remember to take a step back and realize that other people are struggling so much more than myself and my family.
Sailor is on the move as of this week. She no longer is in the confines of my arms or carpet burn on her bald occipital. Chaz was back in the hospital as of this week. No pain from his gallbladder anymore but still just as sick. More tests were done. More IVs were administered. More babysitters for the kids. More tears for my poor boy. More frustration to boot. And still we cannot find the source causing this commotion in Chaz's life.
This has made me so grateful for my health and grateful for my husband and his ability to work so hard. He has seen that maybe he should slow down a bit. It has been good to look at it from that point of view, because that is all I can do or I start ranting about how frustrated I am that no one can fix him. I want him back. Don't you?
Since we have been home I have pounced at every moment Sailor makes a move to make sure that Chaz is watching. I ask Cash questions over and over again to make sure Chaz knows how smart and big that boy is getting.
I guess that is what trials are for. To humble us and bring us to our knees. To remind us to never be complacent and to be grateful for what we have, to show us that nothing can remain perfect and of course we don't want it to because we wouldn't remember how good we really have it.

p.s. he is headed to the mayo for more tests this week. would you mind saying a little prayer for him?

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Todays. Agenda


1. Wish Grandma Kim Happy Birthday and tell her that she is the cutest and most fun 55 year old we know.

2. Go to the pumpkin patch and pick out some whoppers.

3. Hang with my dad.

4. Eat pizza and pumpkin surprise cake at Grandma's for a birthday celebration.

October's a good month.